An update of us.

Well.... Josh and I are doing great. I just found a job, I will be working Tues, wed, Thurs.. one week then the other week it will be Saturday and wed, Thurs. I am happy that I have some income to support our family. We plan and hope that we can start finishing our downstairs. I would love to have a little get away while Ailey is sleeping..... We now have Josh's brother staying for a couple weeks, while we get some family problems worked out. I hope and pray that what the out come will be good. I pray that his brother can feel the love he is deserved. He are also planning a trip to Canada. I am so happy to go and meet some people from Josh's mission. They have been offering us some places to stay. I think it would be a great experience for our family. Ailey is now walking with out anything... She is also saying hi.. and good bye. And BA BA.. Which means milk. I am enjoying her each and everyday. I learn many things from her. I love when she just loves on me. She gives me hugs and doesn't even flinch when I give her kisses. She gives them back. But I hope and pray this week we can get through the challenges we are faced and be better people because of it.

Update on us.

Today was a sad day. I only lost, .2.. yeah laugh. So I am at 4.6 pounds in 2 weeks, so I am hoping for at least a little more next week. But just lost 1 lb. So he is at 5.4 pounds. But here is a clip of Ailey playing in the bath tub. Well also this week I am starting to work with home interiors. I am so excited for this. I hope that I can help others decorate there home.

YEAH!!!!

So I weighed in today and lost 4.4 lbs. I was very proud of myself. I had a hard first week... But I know i can do this. Oh.. josh lost the same. 4.4 lbs. well I made a scale for the bottom of the page, that will keep track of what I have lost. But I thought I would keep our friends posted on our success.. OH.. Ailey is doing much better today. And every bottle she has been taking milk just fine.. No problems. She doesn't even notice it's not formula. But yeah party on.... here's go another day.

What a sad day

Ailey had her 1 year check up today. She weighed 16 lbs 13 oz. Nuts!!!! She is so tiny for her age. But the doctor told her she needs to start eating some fating things.( What???? I am on a diet but Ailey gets extra butter on her stuff.???) If you have any ideas of things that are fating to help Ailey I would appreciate it. And stuff that would not be tempting for myself. But yeah she was looking good. Oh... but the shots were sick.. 1 in both arms. then 1 in both legs.. I thought she was going to die. She gaged like she was going to throw up, then she spit up a little... then she cried so hard that I couldn't even hear the cry just the motion. It was not a fun day... Well party on... I have a sick, tired girl to go take care of.

Ailey Turned 1.

So.... Ailey Mckell Rae has turned the big 1. She enjoyed her cake and wrapping paper..But now she enjoys eating elmo's eye's off.. Oh and her sparky dog stuffed animal. She is also in the process of cutting another tooth. But hope you enjoy the pictures....

Well on Friday September 21, 2007 Josh and I have decided to go on a diet. We are going to lose this weight. We started Weight Watchers. So I hope we can pull it off..My first goal is 23 pounds. Josh's is the same. We will keep you posted of our weight loss.

1 Year Ago on September 20th,2006

I still remember the day, but don't remember the pain.( i guess that is why women have more then 1 kid they forget). I do remember how nervous I was. And how I dreamed about this day for 9 months. I do remember having plenty of time to think the couple days before she was born. Here are some of my memories...( The doctor decided to put me on bed rest and see how this next week goes ( week 35), if she doesn't move call us. ( If you remember I was having problems with Ailey.) They said if I didn't feel her move I had a high chance of stillborn.( Who in there right mind tells a women, a pregnant woman no less. a week before they decided to induce me. That????) I remember lots of phone calls, and tons of support... Thanks to my family....and my amazing friends. I do remember it honestly being a miracle. To really think how it works is amazing. I remember laughing at those mom's who would cry when there kid was born, but I was one. I cried because I knew there was a deep love and bond, before I even held her. It's an amazing feeling. I can't wait to do it again. Well skip the pregnancy part... and the problems.....

Today is a day I know I will give thanks to my heavenly father. I was given an opportunity for my faith to be challenged. I never prayed so hard, or felt so at peace the night Ailey received her first priesthood blessing from her father. From then on she only improved.... She helped me over come fears... She helped me to become stronger... and she gave me the opportunity too face fears I never knew I had.

I love Ailey more and more each day. Some days she wears me out... But I enjoy when she smiles at me. Loves on me, and gives me kisses. Or wants me to hold her because she fell and has a BO BO. I never thought motherhood was so rewarding......

I pray that my heavenly father blesses me with many more... OK maybe 3.. for my sanity.

September 17th ( 3 Years Ago )

So it's been the same old here.. Besides josh and I are going to celebrate our Anniversary. I went to the temple this last week to see my friend get married.. Wow.. I guess it brought back some memories.. It brought tears to my eyes to know that I will be with josh forever.. Her ceremony was a beautiful reminder. I sat back and thought back on my wedding day.. Some days I wish I could go back to feel those feelings again.. This last week our lesson in church was on Chasity. For some reason a lady was asking an older lady in our ward, whom is 80 something years old. She asked her if she is more in love with her husband now? Wow... She said that she loved her husband move then she could thought possible. And that the love just keeps growing with you think you have no move to give. She said, yes there was years that he was not my prince charming. But now I look back and it's only prepared us for our finale days. I look forward to going on walks with my spouse.. and cry together when we think about losing one another. How lonely I would feel.. Well this lady brought tears to every ones eyes at church. And was a testament to me that love only fails if we fail it. I am grateful for josh and the support he gives me. He gives me strength to keep going to make it to my heavenly father. I love you babe... Thanks for working hard for myself and our family.

3 Years ago seems like yesterday. But feels like we have accomplished many of our goals. I wanted to be a mom, and that came true. I can't believe she is going to be 1. She is an amazing little girl. Our heavenly father does send us gifts... they hold forgivable hearts, they love you know matter what, they are happy, which makes you happy. And they help you want to become a better person. She has given me a desire to strive for a better live.

I remember josh and I's first date. He was hot!!! He also was easy to talk to. Life always seemed to pass by when we were together. When we got farther into dating, I found myself in love. I am so happy that I choose to be sealed to my best friend. He knows what to say when I am having a bad day, or keeps me laughing.. I love his smile:).... and his dimples. I think he is an amazing father! He sure knows how to make Ailey laugh. I know that she is a daddy's girl, by always smiling when his song comes on the phone when calling. Or always cries when he leaves ( which she doesn't for me.) She knows how to work him....

I hope this year brings a better year. More in love. I hope we do things which are better for ourselves and our marriage. I am grateful for Prophet Joseph Smith, and the strength in which he had. I am grateful for Prophet Gordon B. Hinckley. The revelation he receives for us, to better our life's. I know that this church is true. I know that my heavenly father loves me. I love the music that helps me feel of the spirit. I love the sweet spirits he sends to earth. For they are children of god. I am grateful for my family. I know that I am blessed with the opportunity to be with them again someday. I love my husband... he is my best friend. And pray that I can be more like my heavenly father this next year.

LOVE YOU JOSH!!!!!